Archived Lunations:
Rise Above It!
Full Moon
May 2, 2007
11 Scorpio 38′
What you have expresses as a healthy giving of service. You gotta give what you gotta give. You might be shy about it, a beginner at it, but you have to express it, show it, serve it, give it. You have to give your heart, your essence, your stuff— that which is important to you. It may be your pearl of great price that you have to offer or some fruitful beauty born of pain. If you lay it out in sharp exquisite detail, it will take someone’s breath away as they suck it into the heart of the hurt. And when they breathe out, toxins will leave and fresher air will come into the lungs again and that which is toxic and laced with shame will flow out.
It has been said that we are only as sick as your secrets. Secrets that make us sick are those that have the seeds of our own condemnation. I can’t look at it, we think, without thinking. This is out of my grasp, out of my handling, outside of my comprehension. If you can’t tell it—to someone, at least to yourself, it is because you have condemned yourself. I promise you this—if you are condemning yourself, you are not seeing the matter aright.
There is an aspect of you that is forever pure and undefiled, that has not been touched by your errors and your misjudgments. It has not been disturbed by your missed opportunities or shaped by the time you have wasted. Step up to that self. Bow down to that self. Embrace that self. Receive the forgiveness of that self. Say oh, and ah and ah ha! as you come to look at that which you condemn and fear with new eyes. The truth sets you free.
There is no such thing as an outside world the way we have been conditioned to think of it. Our fundamental mistake is that we think of externals as “the cause.” We think: This problem in my face is caused by conditions that are outside of me. They are controlling me! Thus, we are always figuring out how to react. We try to make the most of things and some of us are better at that than others, but there is always someone or something outside of us calling the shots.There is someone outside we are trying to please in exchange for their favor. Or so it seems, but it is not so. Cause is internal. Maybe deeper than consciousness, but internal. Maybe more than personal, but internal. The world outside is really the world inside. You are at the controls. Change within and change without will follow.
Hear this! Neither are we left to our own devices. It is not our strength or strategy that wins the day. What wins the day is hooking up to an intelligence that lifts us up. This intelligence is causal and its cause is always for our good. Even if it is bad, it is meant for our good.
Love is the key. Love is the luminous intelligence of nature. Like the glyph of Venus, Love is spirit over matter, a light on the path, the ability to rise above and see a way.
One more tip: Time is never the issue. We say we don’t have time, when we really don’t have inclination. Time doesn’t run out, but opportunities may be missed. Practice saying “I’m not inclined,” instead of, “I don’t have time.” This makes it more a matter of choice than something outside your control.