I Know Nothing

Divine Mystery II by Deborah Singleteary

New Moon Solar Eclipse | March 29, 2025 | 9 Aries 0’

I know that I am intelligent, because I know that I know nothing. —Socrates

My life is rocking with change and uncertainty. I don’t know. I really don’t know.

I know how to set myself up though. I know how to frame the fear of change and the apprehension accompanying uncertainty.

There is absolute order in everything. I may not be able to discern the order, but no matter what chaos appears on the surface, the foundation is orderly. If I don’t feel order, I conjure up the feeling of order by relying upon the knowledge of order. I make this knowledge my foundation or framework. This knowledge in itself offers a structure. This structure, or knowing, invites and allows stillness. Stillness encourages listening. Listening creates the peace that passes understanding into my experience.

In Qabalah, Order is number four and the key to four is The Emperor. The Emperor is associated with Aries. Aries is associated with the first house on the eastern horizon of the zodiacal circle. Aries is the first sign of the cross of four equal arms upon whose points are the seasons, spring, summer, autumn and winter.

This cross is called a cardinal cross. That which is cardinal is pivotal, essential, and principal. The cardinal cross of the seasons corresponds with the cardinal signs of Aries, Cancer, Libra and Capricorn. These signs correspond to self, inner self, self with others, and self, outside.

Recently, feeling tossed upon the emotion of insecurity consistent with a chart tone of the emotional sign Cancer, I looked at the Emotional Guidance scale and noticed I was feeling predominantly worried, overwhelmed, fearful, and powerless. I know that if I don’t want to doom myself to unsatisfactory results this is not the vibration with which I want to create.  I need the higher vibrations/feelings of positive expectations, joy, appreciation, empowerment and freedom.

I knew I had to change my thoughts in order to allow a change of feeling that would be more self-accepting and optimistic.

No amount of knowledge or information without the anchor of good feeling was going to order my steps. This is what I know for sure. Nothing good comes from worry. I might feel that fear would prod me into action, but that action is sure to be weak, confused and ineffective.

The New Moon is semi-square Uranus. We are making new beginnings even when we don’t know what’s next. Not knowing what’s next and the fear of not knowing could generate irritability. Irritability may be a symptom of estimating our self-worth on the low side.  Self-esteem issues might be a manifestation of self-inflation, wanting to be more than we think we are. We might think others are judging us as not enough, but in actuality, we are judging ourselves. Aries’ key words are “I am.” Determining “I don’t have it, or have enough,” are thoughts that erode.

Another way the insecurity of this New Moon is reflected is by Chiron in Aries square Mars in Cancer. Sharp insecurities are introduced. We might say, “I want to be independent and self-sufficient, but I need help. Needing help makes me inferior.” Challenge any assumption that derives from estimating yourself low.

Uranus in Taurus sextiles Mars which combines innovation and practice. As I write this, I have an opportunity to combine the leap into the unknown with familiar emotional and spiritual practice. I know that things work out for me when I don’t panic and despair.

“Leap and the net will appear.” says John Burroughs. But how am I going to get to where I have never been, if I don’t just do it?

We have to feel and trust the direction of spirit, imagination and faith (Saturn in Pisces conjuncts the North Node, Venus and Neptune all in the sign of Pisces). The North Node in Pisces is a signal to put faith in that to which we aspire, but don’t see. It is easy to be afraid when I don’t know. I counsel myself to not look at what I don’t want. Don't dwell on being too old or too young. Think, "I want that."

Practicum

“There is nothing that is not God.”  —Deborah Singletary

Note where you are in the emotional guidance scale. Try to move up the scale. It is okay to move incrementally —for instance from Doubt to Disappointment. Reach for the high vibrations.